Thursday, April 28, 2005

So I feel like a complete jerk

Over the past two weeks, I have been working on a paper for one of my classes. It is a common and expected thing that I write lots of drafts and often times I find myself rather frustrated. Over the course of a semester I generally develop a good relationship with my teachers, because I end up meeting with them several times before I hand anything in. This past assignment has been no exception, I had been bugging my teacher to meet with me, so that she could look over my essay, but for some reason she was canceling on me. I found this very frustrating and was complaining a lot to my friends. My only chance to sit down and talk with her came this morning. Entering her office, I had this “you own me one” type of attitude. As I sat down I noticed that she had been crying, at that time the paper really was of no consequence as I recalled all the things that I had said about her over the past week (she is so lazy, she is a bad teacher, she doesn’t care and so on). After she finished we talked a little about the paper, then I apologized for being so pushy. I asked her how things were going and she responded with, “actually things have been really crazy” she then preceded to tell me that she had recently found out that she was pregnant and sick and now had to quit smoking and drinking on account of her child. I sat in the chair knowing that nothing I could say could make things better, I tried a few times to say something tactful, yet I stopped in mid sentence. I was reminded once more that, the world does not revolve around me. There are reasons why people do what they do, even if I don’t understand them.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

You are my favorite. I love you so much, Dear One... I have missed hearing from you - how does the blog thing work?

Miss Sharp

colbycraige said...

Miss sharppppppppp,

So dang good to hear from you, I am kinda new at this blog thing ad to be honest, I don't really know. The idea is that I can write some of my thoughts, experiences or a topic down and people can talk about it. That is all I am trying to do. I kinda see it as a interactive e-mail?

Hey, I will be in Tulsa on Friday, will you be there? Do you have a new phone number?

Anonymous said...

Colby,

Miss Sharp went back to Washington last weekend and will be there until May 26th. She still has the same cell number she always had. I would love to see you this weekend if you have time - if not, that's fine too. Talk to you later.

Anonymous said...

so what are you up to this summer colby? traveling? working?