So I feel like a complete jerk

Over the past two weeks, I have been working on a paper for one of my classes. It is a common and expected thing that I write lots of drafts and often times I find myself rather frustrated. Over the course of a semester I generally develop a good relationship with my teachers, because I end up meeting with them several times before I hand anything in. This past assignment has been no exception, I had been bugging my teacher to meet with me, so that she could look over my essay, but for some reason she was canceling on me. I found this very frustrating and was complaining a lot to my friends. My only chance to sit down and talk with her came this morning. Entering her office, I had this “you own me one” type of attitude. As I sat down I noticed that she had been crying, at that time the paper really was of no consequence as I recalled all the things that I had said about her over the past week (she is so lazy, she is a bad teacher, she doesn’t care and so on). After she finished we talked a little about the paper, then I apologized for being so pushy. I asked her how things were going and she responded with, “actually things have been really crazy” she then preceded to tell me that she had recently found out that she was pregnant and sick and now had to quit smoking and drinking on account of her child. I sat in the chair knowing that nothing I could say could make things better, I tried a few times to say something tactful, yet I stopped in mid sentence. I was reminded once more that, the world does not revolve around me. There are reasons why people do what they do, even if I don’t understand them.

OK, so I am trying to figure out this dang blog thing. But, I am glad that I have something other than xanga.

Into the Wild

“I’d like to repeat the advise that I gave you before, in that I think you really should make a radical change in your lifestyle and begin to boldly do things which you may previously never have though of doing, or been too hesitant to attempt. So many people live within unhappy circumstances and yet will not take the initiatives to change their situations because they are conditioned to a life of security conformity and conservatism, all of which may appear to give one peace of mind, but in reality nothing is more damaging to the adventurous spirit within a man than a secure future. The very basic core of a man’s living spirit is has passion for adventure. The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences and hence there is no grater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, of each day to have a new and different sun. If you want to get more out of life, Ron, you must lose your inclination for monotonous security and adopt a helter-skelter style of life that will at first appear to you crazy. But once you become accustomed to such a life you will see its full meaning and its incredible beauty.”

Alex McCandless

Into the Wild

“I’d like to repeat the advise that I gave you before, in that I think you really should make a radical change in your lifestyle and begin to boldly do things which you may previously never have though of doing, or been too hesitant to attempt. So many people live within unhappy circumstances and yet will not take the initiatives to change their situations because they are conditioned to a life of security conformity and conservatism, all of which may appear to give one peace of mind, but in reality nothing is more damaging to the adventurous spirit within a man than a secure future. The very basic core of a man’s living spirit is has passion for adventure. The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences and hence there is no grater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, of each day to have a new and different sun. If you want to get more out of life, Ron, you must lose your inclination for monotonous security and adopt a helter-skelter style of life that will at first appear to you crazy. But once you become accustomed to such a life you will see its full meaning and its incredible beauty.”

Alex McCandless